Gab just had a baby... I know I shouldn't care but I do.

it's like the universe is giving him a baby almost the same day it's taking my chance to ever have one.

Vic, my love, I’m so sorry… it’s normal that you care.

It’s like life is giving you the middle finger and it sucks.

How did you find out?

Exactly... I'm really trying to be happy for him because I know he will be a wonderful dad but it's just painful right now.

We're kind of talking again since he stayed with me before the surgery. He's checking on me almost every day.

I was honestly happy about it because he used to be a big part of my life and my best friend... But now I don't know.

You’re allowed to be happy for him but sad for you, Victoria. It doesn’t make you a bad person. You can feel different emotions at the same time.

It's just another kick in my face.