If that's what you want to tell yourself, do.
But you're not protecting me and I'm not healing when I'm not around you either.

But I don't want you to worry about me either so... do whatever you want.

Just please let me know if there's any change.

I'm responsible for your accident. I'm responsible for the end of us. We both know you wouldn't be in a bad place today without my poor choices.

I feel like you're not allowing yourself to be mad at me for all of this just because I'm sick but it doesn't make me less guilty.

You're not responsible for my accident. You're responsible for us, yes. But you're not responsible for the way I handle things.

You've destroyed every dream we ever made just because you thought it was best for me. Of course, I'm mad about that.
That's not how we were supposed to work. But I guess I was wrong, since you're doing it again: making decisions for me.

I received the final report on the accident this morning. I haven't opened it and I probably won't.
But if you want it, I can send it over.

I don't want to fight you or make decisions for you Beth but these past few weeks have been all about me and the stupid cancer but you're not ok either and you should take care of yourself. You should take all the time you need to process what happened and take care of yourself without feeling guilty of letting me down. You don't have to be there for me if it's hurting you... I've let you down many times, I have let US down. So I will let you decide what you want to do but know that all I want is for you to heal. I need you to heal so I can do the same without being worried about you.

I already know what happened.

You can heal without worrying about me, Victoria. We're no longer "something", you no longer need to worry about me. So go ahead and heal.

Me being here for you isn't supposed to make things harder on you so I'll respect your choice.

But bear in mind that I'm doing this for you, not me.